Healing Prayer

My very dear friend Paulette Hopple died on Thursday morning. It was sudden, yet not unexpected. For 20 years she’d had a death sentence over her because of a rare form of scleroderma which had attacked her lungs. Through much prayer God gave her more strength, vim and vigour than most of us without any disease. She was someone who never did anything by halves… it was always full on.
I’ve always been impressed with her keen interest in people, and no matter who they were she wanted to know them, was concerned for them and wanted to encourage them in whatever way she could. I remember on a visit with her earlier this year in Mae Sai. She would always speak with the beggars who’d come across from Burma; she wanted to know who they were, what language they spoke and what were the circumstances of their life that had brought them to begging. Invariably she would give them some money or pay for a good meal for them. I found this care about people to be quite overwhelming.
She had been serving God in Asia. While on a 6 week trip for language data collection and a literacy workshop she experienced increasing difficulty with breathlessness at the slightest exertion. She knew it was bad but did not stop until completing the literacy workshop in which training was given to speakers of the ethnic language with whom she worked. These folk were being trained to be literacy teachers for their own people in their own language. After this her breathing become more laboured and she ended up in hospital. Her heart was unable to oxygenate her blood and gave out just after midnight December 18.
I miss her, and will continue to do. She was a good friend to me. We’ve been friends since being in grad school together in the mid 70’s, so it’s been a long blessing.
All her friends and colleagues around the world are in shock, and feeling deeply the effects of sudden loss. Though it seems as if her life was cut short, it wasn’t. It was God’s time for her. It might not suit us, or make sense to us, but it was definitely God’s time.
This mornming I was reading John 14:1-3 and was impacted afresh by Jesus’ words when he said: “I am going to prepare a place for you … When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am.” Jesus had finished preparing Paulette’s place and came to get her! Wow! And, I’m sure she was ready to go and knew it was time.
When will our places be ready? Will we be ready to go with Jesus when comes to get us? I pray we will. I pray I will.
Bless you all!

How does self-pity differ from the factual statement of pain and the cry to God?

Do people who can’t hear God, no matter how much they want to, have self-pity standing in the way so all they can hear is themselves and their own pain?

There are the ones who are “obviously” in self-pity because they are continuously expressing “woe is me” in one way or another. Their whole demeanour is one of “woe-is-me”, even the way they talk is very whiney. This is off-putting to others. Such people may have few friends, or if they do these friends may be suffering in a similar way.

There are others whose self-pity is not so obvious. The clue seems to be that like the “woe-is-me” people, they keep coming back to the same things and going over the same ground, like a merry-go-round that never stops for them to get off.

With either group deflection into self-pity happens often and quickly. It seems to be a protection of some sort. Self-pity has a genuine core of real and true pain but it also seems to have a blame element that shows them as the victims and everyone else as the victimiser. This self-pity seems to have a power to keep the person focused on themselves and on their pain. Sometimes it is very cleverly couched in such a way as to keep the true identity hidden. If self-pity is exposed as self-pity then the person is forced to face it and do something — make a choice to deal with it (whatever that means) or to remain in it and stop wasting the time of counsellors, friends, prayer team, etc.

How does one face and deal with self-pity? Leanne Payne’s “Restoring the Christian Soul”, Part 1 addresses this in part by identifying self-pity as a manifestation of self-hatred (and self-hatred as a manifestation of pride).

Another way to face it is to keep on acknowledging it and “putting it aside” while addressing the real issue. Initially, this will be next to impossible but with the help of trusted friends and counsellors, it can happen. As the healing progresses, the roots of the self-pity are slowly removed. As God brings his truth into the wounds where self-pity has been rooted its reason for existence is removed. Where there are demons attached to the self-pity they lose their right to remain and must leave (of their volition or be sent packing). Change should become obvious to the person and especially to others. If it doesn’t then there’s a need to investigate what is going on. Is there a lurking demon that needs to be dealt with? Is there some hidden sin? Vow? Judgement? Something? God knows and can reveal it.

If the person is only used to looking at their pain they may need help to turn their eyes to Jesus and fix them there and so learn new habits, new habits that are God-focused not self-focused.

Self-pity is an insidious thing and gets in the way of a person’s healing journey. Here are some of my musings about self-pity. I’ll add other posts about the topic in the days ahead.

Self-pity may result from  self-centredness/self-focus in which a person is only able to see life from the perspective of the self. Self is at the centre of the universe, not God. In a way, self-pity is saying I’m the only one who is important and everyone else must take care of me. No one else’s needs are a consideration in any way. Self-pity blinds one to truth.

Maybe in a way it’s an emotional scrambling to prove that I have value and am worth consideration. Self-pity seems to spin out of something missing in childhood. Is it the little child’s attempts to get attention and validation? When the little child is wounded and there is no nurturing is one result self-pity? The child’s attempts to comfort the self? To give the self the attention it didn’t receive when it was needed and appropriate? Maybe. However, how is it that some people are full of self-pity and others aren’t? Self-pity may be disguised in many ways. The “woe-is-me” variety is a complaining, whining, “life is miserable” sort of thing. Is the strong silent type simply another form of self-pity — “I’m not going to let anyone near me again” sort of thing? Is this also self-pity? It seems possible.

Maybe it is that every way we seek to protect ourselves is a result of the self acting out of self-pity. All defences are self-pity based. Is this reasonable?

Some self-pity is impenetrable. Why is this so? After some healing, a person may have a better handle on when it’s happening but it can still creep up on the person because it isn’t always readily recognisable to the one who suffers from it.

Some self-pity is not easily recognisable. It may seem reasonable and rational and can take quite a while for it to be exposed. I have a suspicion that I am missing it a lot in the people with whom I pray making their healing journey longer. There are times when I think something is self-pity but it turns out not to be, and then other times when self-pity has been interfering and only as the person has identified it has it been possible to break out of the whirlpool and move forward with Jesus’ healing.

Then there’s also a religious spirit which can occur together with self-pity. That’s a hard one, a very hard nut to crack. Only God can break that one apart. There’s a self righteous justification and a deep belief that others are to blame for my pain and they must repent before I can be healed. (More about this sort of thing later.)

Sign – Drive On Left

Originally uploaded by bhojman

I recently had the chance to drive around the Great Ocean Road in Victoria. Overall it was a very wonderful experience.
Everywhere I went I found these signs reminding people that in Australia we drive on the left. I gather that overseas visitors have had trouble staying on the correct side of the road.. !
As I’ve thought more about it I’ve been struck by the message that comes through. There is a right side of the road and a wrong side. Travelling on the wrong side will result in disaster. The right side will make it possible to arrive safely at our destination.
The same is true for life’s road. Jesus Christ is the right way, travelling along the road with him is going to get us to our destination. Travelling on the wrong side of life will result in disaster.
It bears thinking about!